Love me for me ...

Okay ... here's a ramble from my brain.

Have you ever been true to yourself, but were ruthlessly beaten down by others for doing so? The pressure became too much, so for years you try to change your inborn instincts, molding to what you think people find acceptable. Then one day you say, "Enough! Who am I anymore?" At this point you dig deep, attempting to find that genuine, fun-loving, creating self once again. Only, the more you find her the more life repeats its self and you find others ridiculing you again?

That is the very short story of my life.

It messes with my brain ... the closer I am to myself {not in the selfish way, but in the feeling comfortable in my skin and with who I am} the farther away from others I become. Which makes me sad because I am a people person. I mean I LOVE people! They are God's greatest creation and each has such an amazing story to tell.

But it feels like the more I find peace the more they want to take it from me. Deceive me. Belittle me. Judge me.

It begins to wear on me and I say Screw it, no one in this world wants to be my friend. People suck! Why should I try to be kind and forgiving when they won't do the same?

I become angry and everything in my world turns dark.

But, not for long as the light helps me realize I really do have amazing people in my life that love me for me ... people that never did or will leave my side ... those who will never stop loving me.

Of course, they might not join in when I'm literally singing on the mountain tops, but they listen with a smile ... and you know what is wonderful? ... I do the same thing for them as they express themselves.


So I ask you:

Where are the people in your life that love you no matter what? Find them. Spend your time with them. Remember them when life gets rough ... they are the ones that will never let you down. And I promise they are there ... you just have to turn around, look them in the eyes and accept their love.

And to take these ramblings one step deeper ... we are all so valuable ... especially to our Heavenly Father.

Be of good cheer.

Love and Peace.